when the heart can’t quite keep up with the mind,
what do the limbs reach out to find?
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is the writer’s person a direct reflection of what he/she writes?
i hope not.
if you have a history of writing, at some point in your life, you have probably looked at the things you wrote in the past and thought, ‘gosh, what was i thinking? how could i possibly have written that? what was wrong with me!? GAH!!’ we didn’t think much of it back then (we probably even thought we were SO COOL!), but sometimes we look back and find ourselves spirited away to Cringe-Land.
as people, we are, for the most part, constantly changing – struggling, growing, and maturing day on day.
” 98% of the time, we feel ‘alright’, “
the writer’s person is the culmination of every experience they have had; the takeaways from the people they have met, the weight of the things that they have done or left undone, the highs and the lows that they have gone through.
in contrast, what a writer writes is often a snapshot of a moment in time.
i seldom write about that 98% that is probably a more accurate portrayal of who i am (okay, maybe the percentages are not so extreme…). instead, it is in the 2% in which i am not ‘alright’ that most often find my heartstrings tugged, that i feel compelled to chronicle my sentiments.
in the end, i have to confess that i am, more often than not, a selfish writer – i write to vent, to channel my emotional energy elsewhere; to reprimand, encourage, or warn myself; to journal progression, to track my thoughts, to make memorials of certain incidents, and sometimes just because i think it would make a good story. if anyone likes what i write or feels benefited by it, that’s great, and i’d be happy to talk with them about it! but half the time (and probably more), i write knowing the target audience is me.
perhaps i should not speak for all writers, but at least, this is why i write what i write in the manner which i write.
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i’m mostly alright. 🙂
Q